the venture of growing up

so, with summer soon starting for the younger and possibly more naive students, its making me realise that i am officially starting my gap year. majority of my other friends are all going off to uni, us having conversations about them and their soon to be new lives in different countries all around the world has dawned on me.

i’m not going to university.

at least not for now. this common ideology that once a student graduates high school, they should go straight to university is slowly diversifying. people head off straight into jobs, take 6 months off, take a whole year off – people even take multiple years off. the way i look at it, your teenage years and brief time after that is the only real time in your life which you can make true advantage of. you can still live with your parents without seeming (to our judgemental society) like a slacker, you can still do those things which you can’t when you’re thirty and seem to old and mature to do, and you can still do things which are planned for the youngers but you can pull it off anyway. you can take advantage of not having the responsibilities like children, full time jobs, employers and so on. you can allow temptation to guide your life and achieve things you never thought you would be able to, all on the continuous venture of growing up. creating yourself as a person and concentrating on what you actually like and what you actually want to learn. not the bullshit system of school which pushes theories and logic onto students which might not enjoy it and might not understand it no matter how hard they try.  i’ve moved on from the unattainable dreams of being the perfect daughter, perfect student, perfect person. i won’t get full marks in IB, i won’t make no mistakes, i won’t be exactly what everyone wants me to be.

but i will be me. and i’m most excited for this. with many life long friends leaving to other continents it will test our relationships, many will fail and be forgotten – while there will be others which distance cannot overcome. although i do something wish i was going to university this year, a fresh start and a kickoff for new experiences, i’m starting to cherish the choice i made to take a year off. i don’t think im mature enough for university just yet. knowing that i have this time off is letting me relax and destress, and trust me i need it.

to wrap things up, this continual journey of growing up isn’t just evident in your young years. yes graduating high school and starting my gap year has made me think of my life in a different way, but there are so many milestones in life. each one unique in its ways, and each one bringing its own challenges and stories to tell afterwards. what i’m saying is, life is precious. don’t let societal norms stop you from being your own person and growing until you truly feel great with who you are. i’m on that journey now, and i can’t wait to see where it leads me.

until next time,

amber xx.


my koh samui experience.

a true whirlwind; thats the only way i can explain my experience of grad tripping in koh samui. the small tropical island of the mainland of thailand, koh samui is known – rather infamously –  for its unsafeness, high levels of drugs and alcohol, high risk, continuous accidents, partying and crazy atmosphere. its where thousands go every month (especially during summer) to experience the full moon party and the nightlife of koh samui. and so naturally, its where i went to celebrate my high school graduation.

going to koh samui at a mere age of 17 and a small group of close friends from my own school was quite scary i must admit. we hear stories every year of rape, murders, accidents, aids and so much more happening on that crazy island. but we also hear stories of incredible times, memories that will never be forgotten, and friendships which become stronger. its truly a way to celebrate finishing school.

heading to ks i had no true idea of what to expect, i know from my sister of the cool atmosphere and how you can party and not need to really care at all! i was so excited to spend days lounging by the pool or sea and then go out and party! when i did go out, my was it a difference to hong kong! ks’ legal drinking age is 20. and its safe to say NO ONE cared about that at all, it pretty evident that the laws there aren’t really laws. in hong kong its really strict when we go out, we get forced into dressing well and looking our best (forced for society one could say). but in koh samui, you can rock up in a tank top, shorts and flip flops and still have an incredible time. and although i didn’t know what to expect, my holiday was EVERYTHING i did NOT expect (or want) to happen.

i ended up falling sick, it started from food poisoning (i think) and developed into a bacterial infection in my guts. even that doesn’t sound pleasant. but starting from my second night in koh samui, i started to get sick. having crazy painful cramps just before we went out caused my first night out to not be so great. and then being forcefully woken up by my turning stomach (at least it let me experience the crazy sunrise in the next photo) at an early 6am and continuously being sick until the later afternoon until finally i got charged into the emergency room of the thai international hospital. i ended up staying the night at the hospital and was discharged the next day, but i still felt so under the weather. unluckily for me, full moon (the biggest night out) was the night after i left the hospital. i truly hate that i got sick because for the next 3-5 days of being out of hospital i continually felt nauseous and pained and it really affected my holiday.

but i wasn’t going to let my sickness ruin everything, yes i had a few days and nights feeling like utter crap. but i managed to pick myself up and enjoy my short time there. we had a day when we went atv-ing, elephant riding, zip lining and went to a waterfall. that was truly amazing! and on my last full night i went out. and i mean, out out. i got to the main party area at around 12:30, and started dancing there and then! i didn’t stop until 5:30 – 6, after which i went to chaweng beach and watched the sunrise. along with a whole group of other hk people, that was the perfect way to end my holiday. being a party girl, i wanted to go to ks and party my ass off. i had around 4 nights of going out, which were incredibly fun don’t get me wrong, but i either felt sick or left early. and so, having one full on crazy night out led me to being so happy with how the trip turned out.

its quite a life lesson i learnt while being on my grad trip. there will always be things that you can’t control which will happen to you when you least want them, and no matter how much they ruin and upset things for you – you just have to be strong and accept the good for the good and the bad for the bad. being sick absolutely RUINED my holiday for me. and yet, looking back at it again now and writing about it – theres so many things i’m grateful for and had the most fun with. and so all in all, nothing truly was ruined. i just had some bad luck.

and so, until next time koh samui. you were fabulous.

amber xx.

my bikini verdict!

leaving to my graduation trip to the beautiful and crazy island of koh samui, I have began my packing for my 9 day trip of intense partying and extreme hangovers, at least I’ll be able to sleep them off by the pool!

The island of koh Samui is off Thailand and is known for its full moon party. In Asia it’s seen as the place to go for graduation trips, and as I’ve now graduated it’s kind of a ritual for me to be going, and so I’m off to board my 9:00 am flights with a suitcase packed with many bikinis and other beach and holiday essentials!

it seemed like the best thing to blog about before I left was my packing, and more importantly bikinis! Summer season is here (for some people), it brings: happiness, freedom, relaxation and heat! A swimsuit under your clothes is a perfect choice, you never know when you’ll want to let loose and go to the beach or pool. Although I’m only going to koh samui for 9 days, I’m bringing 10 swimsuits… Just because I’ll wear some during the day and then when I go out at night I’ll probably wear a bikini or two! I’ve split up my chosen bikinis into a few types, hope you enjoy!

1) The branded.


The ‘branded’. While sometimes over rated, branded swimsuits like these above, the ‘triangl’ bikini, are normally worth the price. These bikinis cost me around 700 hkd each, it seemed a bit much at first but I love these bikinis. I’m not going to lie, there is some social satisfaction you get from wearing a branded bikini, but I guess that’s what you pay for. Especially triangl, the brand is well known through the teenagers (both male and female), and I must say every time I wear them I feel a bit more confident then when wearing others. These bikinis are made from neoprene (the same materials as wetsuits), they are of a great quality and fit onto your body well! They are thicker then most bikinis. The bikinis also come in matching coloured bags which i think are so cute! As you can see I got two, traditional triangl style in the light blue and then also the bra style, which has a bronze bottom, and oh my am I in LOVE with the bottoms!! They shine and sparkle and reflect upon every sunray, it’s gorgeous!

2) the triangle tie bikinis.



The classic bikini really, two triangles and tied together with strings! I opted for two bright and interesting bikinis, for a party and summer holiday you don’t want anything plain! These two come from hnm and primark!

3) the bandeaus. >


Bandeaus are the perfect bikinis to tan in. They allow for the most amount of skin to be exposed and don’t create wacky tan lines! I don’t advise them for walking around in because they have the least amount of support! without having neck straps they can fall off so easily! For bustier girls I wouldn’t wear many bandeaus, at least I don’t think so. They don’t compliment your body shape as much, they give no support and hide your assets! But they are the best for tanning in!

4) the full pieces!


Here I have three full piece bikinis, like I said I’ll be going out a lot and this is a great choice! You can simply pull on a full piece and a pair of shorts, if you feel like that’s too little pull over a chiffon top, beach top, kimono, anything! They are comfy and give a lot of support!

So I hope you enjoyed, these are all the suits I’m bringing with me on holiday, I can assure you that I will be blogging LOTS about my trip so please stay stunned! It means a lot, and don’t forget, always have a little friend helping you pack! Here I have one of my dogs who snuggled up to me as I was folding everything in!




wowow, prom was spectacular! although it whizzed by so fast, and it felt like i barely saw or talked to anyone, it was one of the most fun nights this whole year! everyone looked and felt amazing, its the last time the whole year is going to be together and i think it was such an amazing way to end our whole high school experience. i wanted to share some photos of my experience and also some details of my prom outfit and all that! hope you enjoy!

for the year 13 prom i wanted a dress that was mature and yet still dazzling! I for sure wanted a floor length one because how often can you pull off a ball gown right ladies?! initially i wanted one with lace or mesh inserts which would allow for skin to show but still look absolutely gorgeous (many elie saab inspirations). in the end, i opted for a gorgeous dress which is decked out in sequins and gorgeousness! the dress was in two parts in a sense, from my shoulders down to my knees was the part covered in sequins and embellishments ranging from gold to pink to bronze to pale silver to ivory and so much more! the dress sparkles in the light and it also has mesh inserts through the waist and around the back. the second part is the lower legs, from the knees below there is a triangular cut which stopped the busy sequins to flow to a more calm yet sophisticated pale warm pink chiffon layer (along with a soft cotton/silky petticoat kinda layer under! trying to describe it isn’t working out as i planned so here are some photos! 

my school supplied us with a photo booth which made the night so much fun! i ended up taking a few sets of photos, everyone with loads of candid shots which i love! its such a cute way to remember the night, moments and your friendships!

with my gorgeous date, he truly outdid himself and bought me the most gorgeous bouquet of off white, light pink roses which looked perfect with my dress, AND a beautiful two white rose corsage! i truly felt like a princess living her dream! and doesn’t he look like my dashing prince in his suit and bow tie? 😉

some close up details of my dress, you can see the intricate sequins and the design of the dress a bit more! oh and the beautiful flowers too!!

the dress was a little too big for me but i didn’t know how i could get it smaller considering the material and delicity of it! but i think it went alright even though slightly too big. i paired it with nude ballet flats from maud frizon, and a gold clutch! i wanted to wear heels but the length of the dress was too short to allow me to wear heels!

last photo! anyway, prom was fantastic!

i hope yours all went well,

amber. xo